Lifted Weight

No, this is not a blog about me weight lifting, though that might be interesting.  This blog is about me finally taking the step out of paranoia!

I finally did it.  I actually submitted a query letter to a literary agent.  No word as of yet, because obviously he has to get a ton of queries every day.  To be honest, I AM expecting a rejection letter.  There is absolutely no way that I am going to get lucky by getting an agent the very first time I send out a query - and that is not me being modest - I really believe that.  Not that I don't have confidence either...I do, but I don't believe I am a lucky person.

Yesterday, my fortune cookie said "Do not let your friend's flattery lighten your feet."  This is interpreted to "Don't freakin' get a big head because your friends/family said your novel is good." Ha - maybe there isn't as much confidence there as previous thought.  Maybe it could be that I've been so paranoid for so long that I don't believe enough in my writing.  I mean, I worked on One Hundred, Sixty-Four Minutes for over a year...it has been done for five months and I haven't touched it since then, I mean, it didn't even have a real name until Friday.  The one thing I am absolutely positive of, though is the second I hit that send button last Friday I felt better!

It took a while, it took some coaxing, but in the end - the send button was hit and that is something that can't be taken away.  At this moment, even though a "no" is expected, it is nice to know that the step was finally taken and the weight was finally lifted.  Now, all I can do is smile and say "Yep, I did it.  I took a chance."  And that is somethng wonderful.

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